KiimmyBaybee--x

Let's hope you find this before it's too late...

2009-10-06T17:04:00.004+08:00

Bitching is like a disease,
and you have to stop it before it's too late.

People are talking...

A little bitching is harmless,
but YOU,
You bitch and bitch and bitch and bitch...
and bitch even more!
Are you trying to aim for that first prize for having no friends?

Infact,
how can you even have the decency to call anyone your friend if you just constantly bitch about them...?

Darling I'm writing this not to start a fight, but because i care about you and you need to STOP... not soon, not tomorrow, and not next week; but NOW!

NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!

... before... it's too late.

I mean fair enough we all bitch about people from time to time... but there is a limit. and bebs you've well exceeded it...

So please...? Help yourself... stop !

Two faced...

2009-09-12T17:56:00.003+08:00

Lol bout drama... "what ever happens in drama, stays in drama"
which means i cant expose it on here... but lol. The things people say about you :)!
I hate you sometimes.
Like fuckin crayzee!
Like seriously fuck. me. sideways.

Adela's coming home today wooooo :D
I wna go stationary shopping with her :)!

WTF about talkin bad about me when im right in fucking front of you.
Dont go being a bitch right in my fucking face and then act as if its all good.
Say it to my fucking face if you have a fucking problem yeh :@!

idareyou.
GOONNNN!

Cunt.

End of rant :)!

Dunno why im bloggin but yno whateverrrrr :)!

Want to go home :(!

FUCKYOU
FUCKYOUFUCKYOU
FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU
FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU
FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU
FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU
FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU
FUCKYOUFUCKYOU
FUCKYOU

1 year 8 months 12 days baybessz ;x <3

xo.

2009-06-04T17:54:00.002+08:00

01 year, 05 months, 03 days, 14 hours, 26 minutes, 42 seconds; roughly...
Is it sad that i know that?

Pathetic.

Hopeless.

I don't know what to say to be quite honest.

Without you,
I'm lost.
With you,
I'm still lost.'

It's the way you take me in your arms and play with my hair, then look me deep in the eyes, and tell me that I'm the only one you love; the way you press your lips against mine; the way you hold me.

Don't let go.

*I need you.'‹з

2009-04-28T20:40:00.002+08:00

I'm running out of tears to cry,
to mend this broken heart.
You're not the boy I thought you'd be,
so our love fell apart.

You bruised me, used me,
cut me, teased me,
tore me, hurt me,
broke me, seized me.

[Not done with it]

2009-04-28T20:11:00.004+08:00

12 Stones - Arms of a Stranger

I came home early to see you
Couldn't wait to hold you
I've been away for so long

But as I walked through the doorway
My heart was shattered
To find that your not alone

When will I break
Into pieces
It's your mistake
I finally see that
Everything I thought was you was a lie
Now you left love dying
It's in the arms of a stranger

The days just seem so much longer
Now that I'm without you
It never seems to get better

I'll try to hold it together
And I can't wait for
The day that you fade from my memory

When will I break
Into pieces
It's your mistake
I finally see that
Everything I thought was you was a lie
Now you left love dying
It's in the arms of a stranger

In the arms of a stranger
In the arms of a stranger

When will I break
Into pieces
It's your mistake

Everything I thought was you was a lie
Now you left love dying
It's in the arms of a stranger

When will I break
Into pieces
It's your mistake
Everything I thought was you was a lie
Now you left love dying
It's in the arms of a stranger

When will I break
In the arms of a stranger
It's your mistake
Everything I thought was you was a lie
Now you left love dying
In the arms of a stranger

I came home early to see you
Couldn't wait to hold you
Your in the arms of a stranger
_______________________________________________

I love their songs now :)
Sheesh Alex, it's your fault :P
I love youuu babessss (L):D

xo.

Full stop is a statement.

2009-04-27T22:24:00.003+08:00

xo.


The O's are for the hugs,
The X's for the kisses,
The pair are put together,
for the boy that this girl misses.


The pair, they are a symbol,
Just like the boy and I,
I'm showing him that I'll love him
Beyond the day I die.


Eternity I shall be,
Forever by your side,
Together through the hard times,
No matter how rough the ride.


Please understand this now,
By death I shall not part,
Forver 'n' always,  just like I said,
You'll remain in my heart.




XO.

2009-04-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.
Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.

YOU'RE DRIVING ME TO INSANITY!

It's amazing what we do in our free time ;]!

2009-04-21T23:45:00.004+08:00

Laughing.
My.
Fucking.
Ass.
Off.
At.
Mr.
Fucking.
Potatoe.
Head.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2009-04-21T22:58:00.004+08:00

JUST

A

RANDOM

RETARDED

APPLE

HEAD

LOLOLOLOL.

Okay, I couldn't think of any other words;

Sue me ;]!

I love you Jar Jar.

A little something I wrote in English.

2009-04-21T22:09:00.003+08:00

And that's what brought the tears.
And that's what brought the pain.
The promises you made to me
are broke yet once again.

You promised me forever.
You promised me it's true.
"For life" you whispered in my ear,
Forever me and you.

But life has many corners.
You never mentioned how,
That if I died in years to come,
You'd move on soon from now.

And that's what I don't get.
What does forever mean?
'Cause in my books it always meant:
No one get's in between.

No matter how far the distance.
No matter how long the wait,
You said that you'd hold in the pain,
No matter how hard the rate.

But if I'm not here soon,
I'm dead and gone.
Would you remember me?
Or just move on.

Is my heart just a toy?
Are these hands just your tool?
Is this really true love?
Or am I just an epic fool.

'Cause I think it is.
I really do.
I believe in us.
Just me, and you.

Just me. And you.

Just me. And you.

Just me. And you.

Just me. And you.

Just me. And you.

Just me. And you.

Love.

2009-04-20T23:12:00.016+08:00

Maybe it's not what I thought it out to be.

Heartbroken by thoughts.

And I hate the fact that I know that I love you more;
That I know that I need you more;
That I can't hide these fucking facts :'(!!!

What is love?

Do I even have it?
I feel it.
I see it.
I hold it.
You are love.
My love.
I'm sure of it.
Because I need you.
Because I care for you.
Because you keep me safe.
Because you make me happy.
Because, you're simply perfect.
Too perfect.
But when I'm gone...
The many possibilities.
The most painful; someone else.
Whislt I'll have to watch down on you,
When you tell her you love her.
How she is your everything.
How she makes you happiest.
How no one could replace her.
She'll be your everything.
And I will just fade.
You'll try to forget me.
She'll be "the one."
She'll be yours.
You'll be hers.
And as life goes on; I'm gone.
The memories won't keep you with me.
The proof, won't keep you believing.
Im dead;
Im gone.
She's not.
you're not.
It will be perfect.
And I'm...

N O T .

Til' death, do us part.

So by death, we shall part.

And by this,

I have found the definition of love:

"One day, I will break your heart."

2009-04-20T22:05:00.012+08:00

It was all yellow.

The only colour that really only spoke to me last year.

It makes me feel as if i need to stay strong.
It's funny how it's just a colour, yet it has such a strong voice.

Alexander George Luckett:

My addiction.
My obsession.
My days and my nights.
The sun in my day;
And the moon by my night.

Like the grasping of a life; you hold me.
Like the beeping of a heart; you keep me going.
Like the mother of a child; you look after me.
Like the wife of a husband; you love me.

And I requite thee, the same way.
But more of course.
Though you will deny it;
You know it's the truth ;)!

I truly do, love thee.

xo.

2009-04-17T20:59:00.006+08:00

Su-Z (L) : The Good Ol' Days.

(Sort of. Not really. Kinda. Whatever.)

2009-04-15T00:27:00.002+08:00

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time.
And I'm running out of things to do to get you off my mind (oh whoa).
All I have is this picture in a frame (oh ah),
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where I'd rather be,
but we're stuck where we are.
It's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me,
but we're stuck where we are
it's so hard, you're so far.. (so hard, you're so far..)
This long distance is killing me.

It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

Now the minutes feel like hours
and the hours feel like days.. (whoa oh whoa)
While I'm away (way-ayyyy)
You know right now I can't be home (ahhhhhh)
But I'm coming home soon (ahhhhhh)
Coming home soon.. (ahhhhhh a hahhh)
All I have is this picture in a frame (ahhhhh),
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

.

With you is where i'd rather be (where I'd rather be..),
but we're stuck where we are (oh oh).
It's so hard, (oh ah) you're so far.. (oh ahhh)
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me),
but we're stuck where we are (oh oh)
It's so hard, (oh ah) you're so far.. (oh ahhh)

Can you hear me crying?
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Ooooh woo whoa ah ahhhhhhh oh ahhh (oh-oh ah!)
Uh ahhh uh ahhh whoaooooohh ah (ohh-oh ohh-oh)

With you is where i'd rather be (where I'd rather be..) whoaaaa!
(but we're stuck where we are) oh!
(it's so hard) So hard (your so far), so far
(this long distance is killing me) This long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me) meee..
(but we're stuck where we are) Stuck where we are! So hard! So far
This long distance is killing me.

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time...

2009-04-14T17:45:00.003+08:00

See I don’t understand how you’re number one,
When it was just a fling before now, you’re the one
See all i did was blink twice, from my homie to my only

number one.

You lift me off the ground;
I always want you around;
I ain’t gunna let nothing get in the way;
I'll never let nothing get in the way

Yo, I ain't never gunna let nothing get in the way.
You play your cards all right you’re on A’s.
You make my nights so bright you’re my days.
You took me out of the maze.
You are ->

number one.

My number 1;x

2009-04-12T18:23:00.003+08:00

Argh fuck.
I miss you all so fucking much :'(!
Being in England this holiday has been amazing.
The fiance.
The family.
The friends.

Perfect.

Camden Town.
Wolverhampton.
Trafalgar Square.
Leicster Square.
Golders Green.
Regents Park.
Brent Cross.
Burnt Oak.
Edgeware.
Elstree.

Airplane.
Virgin Trains.
London Underground.
London Buses.
Walking.
Cars.

In other words...

HOME!

First black prez.
Aint that nice.
Im in the highest office that's right.
Now I can have whatever i like :)!!!
xo.

2009-04-06T03:57:00.006+08:00

It would be okay if when you drunk alcohol,
you became a bit gigglish or what have you;
but not like t h i s.

It's horrible.
It's scary.
It's frightening.
It's disgusting.
It's vulgar.
It's horrific.
It's...

Just not right!

Haven't blogged in a while.
Been busy, cause I do have a life and
dont blog about it 24/7 cause im not that sad.

Been having so much fun in England :(
With mum, and alex, and nan and grandad, and friends.
Meh, I dont want to go back :(!

Was in London all day with alex today :)!
Took him back to my nans for a sunday roast,
then went to regents park,
then oxford circus,
then camden town,
then leicster square
=]!

Lmao he bought me luminous leg warmers,
luminous shoe laces,

and yellow sunglasses - Cause he knows i like yellow :D

Lol he also bought nan some flowers :)!
Teehee; course i told him to but still - he paid so yeh :P!
Oh lmao, i also got him to buy hot cross buns for granddad :P!

Gonna see him again on tuesday :D
But that will be the last time before i go back :@ :(!!!
Meh.
I love you so much alex.
I really do.
Argh, this holiday has been the shortest;
but I really think it was one of the best in my life :(!

Everyday I spend with you is amazing.
And with each day that goes by,
It always gets better!!!

Ere's some random pics from london :)!

So yeh... I do have other pics.
But Im knackered, and can't be assed to upload.
Gonna get some rest.
Cheerio

xx

2009-03-24T19:11:00.002+08:00

EAT YOUR HEART OUT.
It's not like you can anyway.

TRY.
You Fail.
You Can't.
You Suck.
Don't Bother.
Save Yourself the embarrassment.

I am the voice that walks the back of your mind.
The hidden speaker, that you can not find.
I am a feeling of strong dissent.
I am the reason for your discontent.

xo.

2009-03-24T18:40:00.004+08:00

You say:
Have nothing to worry,
nothing to fear,
Have nothing to scare,
I'm always here.

You should know that by now,
Your the only one,
Your that only girl,
who for, I will run.

I'll swim an ocean,
and fly the sky,
I'll walk the world,
Babe, please don't cry.

Girl its you,
And only you,
Just you.
And no one else.

So stop worrying babes,
We're engaged, remember?!
No arguing,
No fights,
And no other girls.
Just you. And me.

So why do I worry,
And why do I scare?
You know babe, I hate it,
When you are not there.

So be by my side.
Come take me away.
Not an single person,
Shall persuade me to stay.

For you are my drug.
My weakness,
and strength,
And for you baby boy,
I will go that length.

I'll fly to the moon,
and sail all the seas.
I'll catch you some doves,
and then set them free.

I'll climb up a mountain.
And jump from up high.
I'll hold on real tight,
and never say bye.

For you are my drug,
My weakness,
And strength,
and for you baby boy,
I will go that length.

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Lolololol Haven't even read over this so whatever.
So if there are spelling mistakes or it dont make sence...
Well yeh :P!!!
Just typed whatever seemed to pop into my head :)!

xo.

2009-03-20T15:57:00.002+08:00

I dont know what the fuck got into me,
But i opened up notebook, and i cant help but just type rhymes.
I dont know why. makes me seem like such an angry child.
I feel like shit :(
I feel like crap...
I feel...
Heartbroken... Yet I dont know why.
I still have him.
I still love him.
He still loves me.
Help me... :'(!
Im so... so.. Confused

give me a gun,
i'll give it good uses,
dont stand in my way,
or give me excuses.

I wish I had a gun today,
I'd shoot you out my fucking way.
I'd shoot you right a-fucking-way!
And give you jack shit all to say.

dont argue with me,
im not in the mood,
just get out my face,
and dont be so rude;

cause if i was bothered,
id fuck you, you slut,
so get with the time,
and keep your mouth shut.

never will there be a day,
that i will not be here to say
i love you lex, i really do,
nothing else means more than you.

Can I be that apple of your eye,
The one who causes you to cry,
The one who satisfies your needs,
The one who listens to your please?
Can I be that apple of you eye?
Oh please... can I? Can I?!

xo.

2009-03-19T21:01:00.002+08:00

oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh!
I couldn't help but make some rhymes lmao,
I was just typing and rhyming so theyre REALLY random shizz,
But the pauline one... HILLARIOUS...
Ill leave the one about jarrah, i dont think she'll be too happy if i post it :P!

there is this girl, her names pauline,
she fucks so hard, like a machine,
shes so damn good i must admit,
i cant resist but take a bit
of hardcore sex, from this girl,
she makes me jump, and makes me swirl ;)

there's me and reina, we rule the bus,
and everyone is scared of us,
cause we're so cool and theyre so lame,
we our too cool, simply INSANEEE

OKAY OMGSH MUST DO COURSEWORKKKKKKKKKKKK
GAHHHHHHHHH!!!
xo.

2009-03-19T20:19:00.002+08:00

There's so much more that i could say,
but i ain't gonna go that way.
Life changes every day and night,
but can go too far and it might
just tear you up with swords and knives,
or ruin things or even lives.

A sister once you was to me,
but things changed; yet we could not see,
how once our -ship was strong and tight,
ruined by winds of gustly might,
its both our faults and i admit,
but am to fucked to do my bit.

I guess ill be the coward here,
and keep the thoughts that occur, near;
the feelings I shall keep inside,
and never bother to unhide.
I am a lazy shit you see;
So yeh, whatever that's just me.

In the long run, may'e things will change,
but not for now, its out of range.

_____________________
So yeh... Okay, I got bored...
And drifted away into one of my poem moods.
All the lines are 8 syllables :)!
And oh my shit, I STILL havent dont my course work.
Time to OFFICIALY start :)!

xo.

2009-03-19T19:38:00.005+08:00

Awkward yet satisfying.
I cant say that its *better*
but its deffinately more ... relaxing?!
Less things to worry about.
Hide tears behind laughter.
But not feelings.
So.... yeh.
------------------

Ms yap sad if i get a hamster,
She'll look after it whilst im on holiday :D!!!
Dad said "we'll discuss it when i get back"
Hmmm.... *thinking face*

Oh shizz i have coursework due tomorrow
GAHHHHHHHH!!!!
Gna go do it noww :)!
xo.

2009-03-18T18:47:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA

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COCKY COCKERRRRRS;

The worst of its kind.

xo.

2009-03-16T19:36:00.002+08:00

Hadn't been well enough to blog the past few days :(
Shouldn't even me on right now - I should be resting.
But I cant.

Nose is blocked.
Throat is sore.
Muscles are throbbing.
Head is spinning.
And I just contiuously keep fucking COUGHING :@

Had a pretty cool yet horrible weekend :)/:(.
Well basicallyyyyyyyyy.....
On thursday I was down with a sore throat - The 1st symptom.
On Friday, The cough began to develop - The 2nd symptom.
On Saturday, The cough, the sore throat got worse + the cold came along stuffing my nose. - The 3rd symptom.
Then sunday - The whole lot. The headaches, the muscles pains + All the above - The 4th symptom.
THE FEVER :@.

Anyways, Saturday was pretty cool.
me, pauline, eric, invisible jarrah (her heart stalks me ;)! LMAO!!!) alief, domonic, david went to one utama :)! Me an pauline went spinning in trolleys and pauline nearly broke toycity's window HAHAA!!! We watch Watchmen (SHIT. Not 'The' Shit. But SHIT!) and we watched 'Race to Witch Mountain' which was suprisingly quite good :P!

Andways... Sunday was prety depressing, I was completely ill :( But still went to watch wicked wizards at klpac. It was Ok... Not tremendous... Some tricks were cool... Some were ermm... crap... some were sickening and some were [dot.dot.dot.!!!] Then my day got better when i got to speak to alex <3>

Meh going to get credit and some air..
Tah tah.

xo.

2009-03-16T18:27:00.002+08:00

It hurts painfully.

It hurts to breathe,
It hurts to talk,
It hurts to think,
It hurts to walk.

And...

Im feeling crap,
Im feeling shit,
Im feeling bad,
Im feeling sick.

For...

You are a virus,
You leave me sneezing,
You make me hot,
Yet leave me freezing?!

So...

Take me whole;
kill me there;
Leave me not;
Here to spare.

FUCKING FEVER :@
xo.

2009-03-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

- # кιмSUSANNE ‹з ' xo. +||+ alєx + kιm = [ L ] ‹з ι lovє чouu soo mucн (L):D said (13:04):
alex accidentally rang me without realising, so i was just listening to him talking to his mates for about a minute lol - was nice listening to him with his mates - cause i know that hes happy with them :) hehe :(

eric says (13:06):
haha thats cool of u

- # кιмSUSANNE ‹з ' xo. +||+ alєx + kιm = [ L ] ‹з ι lovє чouu soo mucн (L):D says (13:08):
hehe y ?
I love knowing that hes happy, but i dont like knowing that its someone else making him happy, and not me :( heh, jealousy sucks balls.

eric says (13:09):
hahah yeah

Pfft... Text me...

Please?!...

Now...

Or Now?!

How about now?!

Now?!

... please :(?!

xo.

2009-03-11T20:46:00.005+08:00

Memories filled my head today.
Childhood memories,
And recent ones.

Orange Peels.

I remember when i was younger
and I lived with mum and dad
I would go downstairs in my jammies
and watch my dad cut and eat oranges.

He would cut the orange into several slices
then seperate the main part of the orange
from the skin with a knife.

He would then share the oranges with Tommy.
Leftover, were the orange peels.
They were my favourite bits.
Sounds odd, but let me explain!!!

Dad would always cut the flesh from the skin,
BUT he would still leave some flesh on.
Deffinately the best bits.

Mum used to work a lot :(
But she would still try as hard as possible to make me happy.
(crying - agh shit!)
I was spoilt. [admitted!]
I was selfish. [admitted!]
and I still love you.
Always have done.
Always will do.
Even though your in care now,
You never fail to make me happy.
Your old habits are still there.

eat.

work.

sleep.

I love you mum.
And I miss you ever so fucking much.
You're irreplaceable.
The best mum I could ever ask for!
I remember when I was really young and I was on the toilet (-.-),
You said to me "Will you look after me like this, when I am old and can't walk."
I never thought I'd have to live that day.
I thought you'd always be supermum.
Always perfectly fine.
Always spoil me.
But you couldn't take it no more:
The stress, the work; EVERYTHING!
I promise to you mum, that I will forever look after you.
Not a day goes by where I don't think of you and how things used to be.
I will change this.

I WILL.
I WILL.
I WILL.
I WILL.
I WILL.
I WILL.
I WILL.
I WILL.

I love and miss you dearly.
Always thinking of you.

xo.

2009-03-10T20:01:00.002+08:00

In our everyday lives we will all assume things.
When we assume things, we believe they are right.
So yes, you are always bound to believe you are right,
unless you are shown otherwise.

So show me otherwise and prove your point.
Several people know your case and say that you only care because you're the victim;
Whereas if it was the other way around; it would be a whole new story...

I love you, I do.
And I'm not trying to kick up a fight.
Why would I want to do that?! - It would be pointless and pathetic;
and deffinately not the right way to go about things.
I'm not saying that you are in the wrong when the problem is this way round,
but you (IMO) are in the wrong when it is the other way around...
That's all I'm saying...
So don't (please don't!) get the wrong idea about it.

Oh gosh, actually can't be bothered!!!
Lalala - muscles hurt from stupid gym :(!
But I still feel like running :(
So I think I'm just going to force myself to run with the muscle cramps ;]!!!

xo.

2009-03-10T16:01:00.005+08:00

...
Okay so i understand where your coming from...
And yes I pitty you in some sort of way,
But if it was the other way around you wouldn't care...
So why should she?!

Alesha Dixon - Breath Slow

I'm running out of patients
'Cos I can't believe what the hell
I'm hearing
And speaking of hell
It don't compare to this heat
That I am feeling

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control oh woah woah
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see
From the tears that flow oh woah

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Before I lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

Not guuna lie
Or even try
You've got my wheel spinning
And I ain't the one to shoot
The gun
'Cos that means you will be
Winning oh yeah

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control oh woah woah
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see
From the tears that flow oh woah

Ohh oh ooh
Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Before I lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

Somebody better hold me back
You're lucky I know how to act
(So lucky ain't gunna attack)
I'm being calm and cool
But believe me you
It's taking everything to just
Breathe breathe breathe...

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Before I lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Before I lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

You're the one that i want;
The one that I need;
The one the I got to have just to succeed.

xo.

2009-03-09T18:21:00.002+08:00

Not one innocent soul shall be saved when it comes to you.
Everyone whom acquaints your eyes has to be bitched about.
Blah blah blah... Yada yada yada - Im not listening ;]!!!

GymGymGymGymGymGymGym - Love It!!!

xo.

2009-03-06T20:24:00.004+08:00

She Said:-

"I've got to see you boo;
We need to talk;
To look into your eyes and see you looking back;
You know that I love you;
Every little thing you do;
You got me on my knees;
This is the best feeling;
'Cause I know how i feel about you."

He Said:-

"Hey baby girl I've been watching you all day;
Do you know what it feels like?;
To breathe with no air?;
We've got a little world of our own;
And I hate that I love you;
My heart beats fast right now;
You're on my heart just like a tattoo."

-With you - Chris Brown.
-How to save a life - The Fray.
-Hurt - Christina Aguilera.
- I got you - Nikki Flores.
- Hey Juliet - LMNT.
- Innocence - Avril Lavigne.
- About you now - Sugarbabes

- Leaving - Jesse McCartney.
- Do you know what it feels like - Enrique Iglisias.
- No air - Jordin Sparks.
- World of our own - Westlife.
- Hate that I love you - Rihanna
- I hate this part - Pussycat Dolls.
- Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

Okay... So I was bored...
But I enjoyed doing that :)!
Think I'll do it more often :P!!!

xo.

2009-03-06T20:12:00.002+08:00

GRARRRRR...
Im sorry but omgsh - get over it?!
So he likes her? - Well its not her fault! So stop acting so jealous... Its FRUSTRATING!
Dont act like your better then me... Cause your not.
Just... Get over it...

"Shut the fuck up!!!!!"

"Omgsh i knowwwwwwww - jeez!!!"

"YEH!! Yeh - i get what you mean!!!"

"Its not my fault he likes me and not her!"

iloveyoualex.x

xo.

2009-03-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

Done with coursework.
Done with diary entry for English.
But theres still soo much moreee :(
But oh well...
As Chris from skin's would say... "Fuck it!!!" :)
Meh, had better sleep lol :P
Alex had BETTER wake me up later :)!
Lovies :)

xo.

2009-03-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

LOLlolLOLlolLOLlolLOLlolLOLlolLOLlolLOLlolLOL
Random shiz.
GRAR - FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!
So busy !!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow ive got to hand in my business coursework, my business homework, my english diary entry, remember my lines for drama, revise for my orals in mandarin, and revise for maths text tomorrow :| And i know that out of the lot, the only one im bound to do is business :|!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AGHHHHHHHHHHH

xo.

I'm the world's greatest ♫

2009-03-04T20:30:00.003+08:00

Woop changed my blog skin :)!

Basic+Simple=JustWhatIWanted.

Il Divo's version of hallelujah is absolutely

Beautiful.

Yellow makes me

happy.

Green makes me

peaceful.

Blue makes me

calm.

Orange makes me

merry.

Red makes me

think.

Purple makes me

daydream.

Pink makes me

smile.

White makes me

dream.

You make me

all of the above. [L]

andiloveyoualex.x

2009-03-04T17:18:00.003+08:00

Cant wait to get back home omgsh!!!
Cant wait to see nan and grandad and mum and alex!!! GRARRRR!!!!!!!!!!
I miss 'em all so much :(!

Football was fun :)!
Im gna miss the tourni at Alice Smith; to watch Wicked Wizards at KL Pac :(!
Oh well, im sure both are gonna be fun :)!
Got stuff to do.
May blog later :)!


xo.

2009-03-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

Meh...

I love many things and people in this world.
And one of those things, is music - singing.
Singing rids me of sadness... I may sing a sad song, but for some reason, the words just tend to make the world, a little brighter. So Im not the worlds best singer... But i dont care! Singing is for anyone. Anyone can sing - its a matter of singing well.
I miss singing. I used to sing all the time. Literally 24/7... but i stopped singing as much, i never realised how much i missed it. Until today. So i think, ima get back into the singing mood - already feeling happier :)!

Bit of a pointless post - but i dont care - my blog- my choice - my rules :)!

xo.

2009-03-02T23:41:00.002+08:00

"Alex has only eyes and ears for you. your typing what i fucking say... what why?! on your blog? Not that im not flattered or anything... anywayss as i was saying alex only has eyes and ears for you...His world revolves around you!"

- Jarrah

So I guess I have nothing to fear?
for no matter what, youll be here?
No matter how, no matter where?
You will be forever there?
- Promise?

Lol your stuffing your face and i can hear it ;]!!!!!!
Yes I love you hehe course i do :D!!!!!!!!!!!

No Sweets or Chocolates for me :( [Thanks to Alex!!!]

Well whateverrrrr you cant have fizzy drinks so ha :D!!!!!!!!!!!!

xo.

2009-03-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
i miss you
i love you
...

Pfft...

Im longing to be with you so badly;
I miss your touch;
Your scent;
Your warm hands touching me.
I remember everything;
The way you held me and swayed with me side to side infront of your mother;
The way you told me you love me whilst sitting next to your dad on the coach on the way to Paris;
The way we shared our first glances at eachother;
The way we had our first kiss;
The way we took our first photo together;
The way you looked me in the eyes and asked me to marry you...
I remember everything babe.

And those amazing memories continuously replay in my head.

I hate arguing with you.
It hurts me.
And I know it hurts you to.
Im sorry for all those times...
But as odd as it may sound,
I know that I argue with you, because I love you.

Alex+Kim
Kim+Alex
No other word but
PERFECT.

xo.

2009-03-02T22:24:00.004+08:00

So i kinda had the urge to blog?...
Ive got a few things to get off my chest,
and i dont think you would understand
... some of them...

Dont you just hate it when you know that someone is out there flirting with the one you love or even like for that matter...


That person could be a friend...
 A friend's friend... 
someone you've never met before...
 etc...

What about the one your going out with?
The one your engaged to? The one you've planned to be with your whole life? I dont get it... You know hes mine... so er... fuck off eh?!!


Going to the gym is fun...
EXCEPT...


when you arrive to find someone using the machine you want :|! Erghh - irritating shiz :P!


I love you... but why do I have the feeling your btiching about me behind my back...


Meh... i should start proper blogging again :)! It helps to get things out - sorta... i mean... course id rather slap a few faces, kick a few balls - but hey? You dont always get what you want :P!

So i'm a bit bitchy?
So i'm a bitch?
So i love to piss people off?!
And what?
I'm having fun in doing so!
And i dont care :D
So go fuck a horse!

Toodles =)!!!

xo.

To someone who at many points, felt like the closest friend to me EVER. x

2008-12-18T20:08:00.003+08:00

Wow i havent blogged in quite a while.
but seeing as id rather not talk to you face to face or msn to msn for that matter, maybe i should just leave a message here.

This is what you need to understand.
I turned to nikolai because he just happened to be there when you werent - He was just SOMEONE ELSE TO TALK TO! You admitted yourself that you was jealous of it but i barely spoke to him about alex. Infact i dont think i even spoke to him ABOUT alex. I spoke to him about HIM. Is that a problem?!!

and about the whole...
"because you never listen"
meant that it feels like you never listen no more. Maybe thats cause i keep telling you the same thing over and over. Youve never been in my position before so you wouldnt understand. Getting someone elses opinion on something is good to. But thats the thing. I didnt get his opinion about me. We spoke about HIM. So don't jump to conclusions!

I hate arguing - especially with YOU, but fine if thats the way this is going, so be it.

"Ewwww" - I dont care if that was a joke. It hurt. For all ive done for you, never can i remember you saying sorry, or even thank you. I took you in at such fucked up times and you still seemed ungreatful. Maybe if you showed a bit of appreciation sometimes, we wouldnt be in this state. And may i add, that im NOT the only one who feels that you need to fix up and get some manners.

2008-11-03T20:54:00.002+08:00

Funeral for the Quackers fmily - R.I.P

We are gathered here to day to celebrate the life of the Quackers family.
They lived a pleasant life of playing with kim in the bath tub, but unfortunatel suffered a devastating death when she unplugged the bath tub and they drowned.

Now we sit for a prayer.

May the souls of this oh so sexy family live at peace in heaven... For we shall never forget them. Yada yada... blah blah blah... Amen :)!

-------------------------------
So anywaysss....!!!!!!!!!!
School told me to dye my hair bak :@ I got soo effing angry... but oh well...
Im not too fussed bout it,
infact, im annoyed with the fact that CERTAIN people do not think before they speak.
I know she did not mean no harm at ALL when she said what she said,
But they DID hurt.
And they hurt a LOT!

=========================
Omg... Camp on wednesday
and OMG this is my last monday of being 14...
how heartbreaking :(!
(U)

Oh to the emm gee,
ILOVEALEXOBV.!

Oh welllssssssss.........

Time to get down and do homework ahaha :)!

Mwuaxiess [;

xo.

2008-10-29T00:55:00.002+08:00

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I regret curling and highlighting my hair :(!
I miss it being natural.
It was so long and straight and nice ... and i ruined it !!!
Ok, It looks ok now i guess, but i miss it being my natural hair...
I feel soo...

FAKE!

And my hair's a lot dryer :(!
Stupid blonde bits...
Im officially part (fake) bimbo!

Pfft...
A barbie :|! OMG!!!!
No way :/!!!

Yes way.

NO WAY!!!

YES WAY!!!

Oh shut up -_-!

Pfft... Ok :(

I wonder if anyone will actually like it :( ?!
They've seen it on webcam and jeez the comments are soo... -_-

"You look gorgeous!!!
Omgsh STUNNING!!!
OMG OMG OMG
YOU ARE SO PRETTY!!!
I HATE YOU OMGSH!!!"

PSSHHTTT...!!!

Whateverrr guysss ;]

Hmmm... I miss alex...
Lol we're both trying to call eachother,
But the stupid lines wont let us through to eachother,
So we'll have to make do with texting :(!
Teehee, gna sleep now, im knackered.

Much Lovies xo.

Benny Boy & Izzy :D

2008-10-28T01:16:00.002+08:00

What can I say... They're stars :)!
They're keepin me happy ahahaha :D
Specially Ben, he's cool...
but then again, so is Izzy...
Oh gosh hahaha ;)

Anyways,
You wanted your name ere Ben, so ere ya go ahaha ;)!

Oh and omgsh Izzy, You're AMAZING :D!
Thanks for making me a site haha...

www.kimbisok.co.uk
I wonder if I'll figure out how to work it LOOL XD

xo.

I miss you :'(

2008-10-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

Oh Alex... This is so hard :'(
You're in France now and I bet your having the time of your life :(
I miss you so much, it's truly unbelievable.
I can't take my mind off of you.
I want to cry so badly, but I know that will get me no where;
So I try to stay strong.

But it's hard.
Oh so hard :(!
To try and not miss you is like asking me to kill myself :(
I wish I could be with you right now.
No one understands... Maybe you do.
Just maybe... :(

I hope you don't forget me whilst you're there.
And as harsh as this may sound,
I hope you're missing me like how I'm missing you.
I hope you're thinking of me just like I'm thinking of you.
I hope you still love me just like how I love you.

Gosh oh how I love you... So much :'(

I can't help but wonder who you're with.
Who's making you smile.
Who's pulling jokes with you.
Who's pushing you around.
Who's giving you evil looks.
Who's flirting with you.
Who's being that tiny bit closer to you than I am.

I hate to admit it,
But I'm jealous.
Jealous of every single person around you.
Who gets to touch you,
talk to you,
to hold you,
to feel you.

And I can't help but wonder...

If you ever feel the same :(...?!

---------------------------------------

I was reading over past things that went on between us.
Tears tried to break through, but I held them back.
Maybe a few leaked out, but I wiped them away.
I'm trying to keep strong.
Baby I love you.
I need you.

How much longer do I have to put on this fake smile?!
The fake smile that lets everyone seem that things are ok...
When they're not.
They really arent :(!

I need you so badly.
You're all that ever matters to me most nowadays :(!
No one, not ANYONE has ever meant half as much as what you mean to me.

I love you.
That's as true and simple as it gets;
And that's the bottom line.

xo.

2008-10-22T15:21:00.002+08:00

im going fucking crazy.
im going fucking mad.
the feelings u give to me,
are making me so sad.

its pumping like a hearts beat,
and trudding like a horse,
Its moving up and down so fast,
i cannot catch its course.

STOP!!!

Your words are so ... soo... so i dont know :'(!
I miss you so much...
I can't stand being without you.
I need you baby.
You and ONLY you.
I need you now.
Like pronto!
Like omgsh :(!

STOP!!!
...

Take a breather.
Relax.
Actually no. Don't!

Hold me in your arms and tell me how much you love me.
How you need me aswell.
How you want me in all the possible ways!
You are the perfect guy.
You fulfill my needs.
My loving needs.
My sexual needs.
My urging needs.
My happy needs.

What am i on about, i really dont know.
All i know is right now,
i REALLY need you.

Pfft... I miss you baby,
Happy belated birthday.

I love you so much xo.

Oopss...!

2008-10-19T16:50:00.002+08:00

I aint blogged in a while :O!...

Sorry XD Been blogging on something else :)!

Jessy - Dancing in the Dark
Can we try again
to start a new and lovely story
that will shine a ray of light upon our hearts
and bring back long lost glory
of how it used to be
baby you and me
convinced we were each others destiny

CHORUS:
my heart cries out to you
you must forgive me
I've been dancing in the dark
and searching for a spark
a fire still burning
I believe we'll make it through
if you stand by me
we can weather any storm
and keep each other warm
as long as there's love

every time I think of us
my eyes are filled with tears
to think that I gave in to sweet temptation
his words like music to my ears
I hope it's not too late
that you still await
oh please tell me that you're still having faith

CHORUS:
my heart cries out to you
you must forgive me
I've been dancing in the dark
and searching for a spark
of fire still burning
I believe we'll make it through
if you stand by me
we can weather any storm
and keep each other warm
as long as there's love

Hmmm
But faith is not mine
if I could I'd unturn
the hands of time

CHORUS:
my heart cries out to you
you must forgive me
I've been dancing in the dark
and searching for a spark
I believe we'll make it through
If you stand by me
we can weather any storm
and keep each other warm
as long as there's love
never enough
love

Too tired to blog... Will do some ermm well... just not now XD

Much love :)
xo.

2008-10-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

Boy when I’m around you I get weak
my heart starts pumpin’ a crazy beat
words in ma mouth but I cant speak..
Baby I cant breath wid u next 2 me
Gotta check my lungs see if they still work,
Gotta check my heart underneath my shirt
I think I’m in love
There’s something about your smile... ♫

Gosh, that song really reminds me of you :(!
There really is something 'bout your smile...
It gives me butterflies!

Aghh, I really can't believe that your mine (once again!)
Your amazing babes, You really are.
You make me so happy,
and you ALWAYS no how to make me smile!
You can easily bring tears to my eyes just by saying simple meaningful words like "I love you"
Because those words aren't just ANY words!
They might look like three words...
Three words that everyone understands...

(Or do they?!
Do people really understand what the words "I love you" really mean?!
Do they feel that sence of comfort when they hear them.
Or has the word simply become so cliche,
That it has lost its meaning..?!
People abuse the "I love you"
Love is a strong word... Just like hate...
Do you understand?!)

Well... Do YOU understand?!
I love you!
I do,
I do,
I do!
I REALLY DO!

From the bottom of my heart to the tippy top.

And no matter what, I will love you with EVERY beat of my heart, 'till the day I die.

Its a promise... forever, for life; to death.

Alex baby, you're the one.

I miss you so much bubs :(!

xo.

Tickle me <3

2008-10-09T15:30:00.002+08:00

BOOM
BANG
He shot me down ♥
[NO ALEX... Don't think like that -_-!!!]

He took my heart,

And he's keeping it safe;

Away from the badness of this world.

He's got my life in his hands,

My dreams in his control,

And he's gonna make it perfect.

We're gonna see the world one day.

Live in it,

Breath in it; together.

With my hand in yours'.

And you'll keep me safe forever just like you promised.

And baby, one more thing,

I love you.

Kim Susanne Bisok

♥
Alexander George Luckett

BooM[<3]

2008-10-09T15:05:00.002+08:00

You're once,
Twice,
Three times a lady,
And I love you.

Lol anywayss :)!

...

I love haters,

Don't you?!

It means they have taken a moment from their lives,

to make me the center of their attention.

Ain't that just brilliant... ;]

Hahahaha...

Anywhoosss :)!

I dont care; I don't give two damn fucks what you think :P!

Change of subby coz I'm bored...

Hmmm...

Camp??... It's gonna be the shit ♥

I love my roomies with passion, lol ;]

Oh gosh,

hahahaha PE was soo funny.

Ok, So it was like a mini tournament,

And about 3 minutes into one game (4 mins each game!!!)

I realised it was my team playing and I WAS MEANT TO BE PLAYING!!!

LOOL I WAS LIKE "OH SHIT THATS MY TEAM!!!"

And Kat and Arianna and stuff couldn't stop laughing -_-.

I was like "haha omgsh shut upp...!!!"

Lol even miss becks knew I was meant to be playing,

but nooo, she decided to keep quiet about it!! LOL :P!

Haha good dayy :P!!!

I'm gonna be sleeping with Pauline at camp :)!

Woottt!

NO not in that way! Gosh -_-!!!

Teehee, you know you love me :D!!!

......

Bleghh... some people these days!

xo.

I'm going insane without you :'(!

2008-10-06T20:19:00.002+08:00

For fucks sake...

I love you so much!

I can't stand being so far from you :(.

I think I've come to a conclusion.

As soon as I've finished my IGCSE's,

I think im going to come back to England.

Too much of my life is back there.

Especially you.

I can't take being so far, I really can't!

Life's so hard without you here.

Baby I need you.

I need you

I NEED YOU NOW!!!!!! Do you understand?!
No one understands, but I think you do. Infact, I know you do...
'cause of the way you looked into my eyes on those days. Especially the Wednesday.

Ohh that Wednesday,
Wasn't it special;

the sofa, the bedroom, the canal, the garden.

Everything was just simply perfect.

Even the way we kissed infront of your mum before I left!!! :P

But they say, "Saying goodbye is always the hardest!"

But thats just the thing.

It's not goodbye.

No, It's:

"Until next time!"

And until next time,

my love for you will forever grow.

I miss you :(!

xo.

Alex baybesz xo...

2008-10-05T17:31:00.003+08:00

Alexander George Luckett...
I keep thinking about those days with you...

I miss...:

staring into your eyes;

watching you breath;

holding your hand;

hearing you laugh;

listening to your heartbeat;

lying in your arms.

I miss everything about you.

Your hugs.

Your kisses.

Your scent.

Your warmth.

Your grip.

Baby I miss all of you.

Just being with you.

HA do you remember when you farted really loudly in the cinema,

and then started makin orgie noices to try and embarrass me..!!?!!!

Hehehehe, right there and then, I wanted to pull you over,

and tickle you like mad.

Do you remeber how you nearly crashed into a coach whilst sitting in our trolley..!!

Lol goshh...!!!!

The memories you've given me babe,

Theyre simply...

Irreplaceable.

I love you.

xo.

Fall for you <3 xo.

2008-10-04T19:08:00.003+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting.

Could it be that we have been this way before?

I know you don't think that I am trying.

I know you're wearing thin down to the core.

But hold your breath,

because tonight will be the night

that I will fall for you over again,

Don't make me change my mind.

Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true,

because a girl like you's impossible to find;

You're impossible to find.

This is not what I intended.

I always swore to you I'd never fall apart.

You always thought that I was stronger.

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start.

Oh, but hold your breath

because tonight will be the night

that I will fall for you over again.

Don't make me change my mind.

Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true,

because a girl like you's impossible to find;

It's impossible.

So breathe in so deepBreathe me in, I'm yours to keep;

and hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap;

and remember me tonight when you're asleep.

Because tonight will be the night

that I will fall for you over again.

Don't make me change my mind.

Or I won't live to see another day;

I swear it's true,

because a girl like you's impossible to find.

Tonight will be the night

that I will fall for you over again.

Don't make me change my mind.

Or I won't live to see another day;

I swear it's true,

because a girl like you's impossible to find.

You're impossible to find...♫

------------------------------------------

Bleghh...

BaybeeImissyou.

And im sitting here hugging your hoodie because thats the closest I can get to you at the moment.

There will once again be a day where i can be back in your arms.

back in your care.

But babe, it will be different.

Because this time, we won't have to let go.

My gosh.

I keep thinking back to my summer days with you.

Those kisses.

The hugs.

The *other* stuff ;)! (Hahaha :P!)

The way you stared into my eyes and told me you love me.

The way your lips brushed mine,

and gently touched my neck + cheek + forhead.

Not a second passes me by where I don't think of you+our memories.

......

- Our chip fight on the side of the canal.

- The text messages you sent me. (Even the one you sent JJ!!! :P)

- Me picking the poppy flower, then you picking the whole plant -_-! (HAHAHA!)

- You trying to throw me into the canal -_-!

- Us falling onto the sofa together.

- The hugs and kisses before we set apart.

- Our carpark time ;)!

- The cinemas!!! XD

- Our LONG walk on the canal!

- Going down the hill in KFC when you FELL and had a big grass stain on your ass hahaha!!!

- Pizza hut with Beth and your mum :P! Lool when we wrote/drew on the tissue :D!

- Sharing strawberrylaces :P!!!

- Stopping at the bar so i could piss lmao!

- Holding your hand whilst walking EVERYWHERE :P!

- Omgshh OUR trolley...!!! YAY XD!

hehe, goshh... there's SOO much more...!!!

Haha it was a blast bubs.

I miss being with you so much :(!

I miss being in your bedroom and on your bed with you hahaha ;)!

I LOVE YOU ALEXANDER GEORGE LUCKETT!!!!!! - xo.

Whateverrr...!

2008-10-03T15:35:00.004+08:00

... and there you go.
That was my opinion.
Anywho's... like I said;
I DONT hate you.
I'm just annoyed that you'd sink that low.

You're RIGHT...!

It's got nothing to do with me.

But when it comes to helping someone out.

Boy i'll be there like your ears and mouth.

No one hated you?!

Sorry but give me a second to laugh...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

Let me just add a few quotes from the past few weeks:

"I actually hate (insert name)"

"Do you know what it's like to walk into a room full of people who hate you"

^^ Something like that.

"She needs to sort herself out"

etc... cant be bothered to remember.

Yes dear, "hate" is a VERY strong word.

But it was deffinately used.

look yeh. All im saying is she stuck by you.

And you ditched her.

It was a bitchy thing to do.

So y'no...

Whatever!!!

Like I said... "I don't hate you."

Nope...

I'm not sure if I ever did.

Or even still do?!

Because we had good times.

But I DID hate your attitude towards many things.

And I had enough of it.

Yes i'm a bit late,

'coz everyone realised it way before me.

But noooo... I was too "stupid" I stayed... coz why?!

Coz for some odd reason you were still my mate.

Still are.

But I still think you're a bitch.

But guess what...

I'm one too!

But at least I've realised that...!

xo.

Bitch.

2008-10-03T12:00:00.002+08:00

What you did was fucking bitchy.

She was there for you when loads of people hated you.

She stuck by your side and still managed to call you a friend.

Now the tables turned, and so have you?!

Dude wtf.

So you think now because of this

you have a reason to fit back in?!

Oh bitch how i wish i could slap you sometimes...

I don't hate you, no.

It's just fucking annoying to see someone perform such a bitchy stunt.

you're shameless you are.

You really are.

And FYI darling, even if she had got rid of the history,

her dad would have still found it.

You know he isn't stupid.

He's a technical person.

He knows how to get around it and into the system.

Just because something is removed from the recycle bin,

do you honestly think it's removed from the whole system..?!

You know everything is stored in the router.

Just thought I'd let you know!!!

Nope, I ain't on about you.

Or you.

Just you.

How could you be such a bitch.

Maybe what she did was wrong.

But what you did in the past was wrong to.

And wen most people turned on you,

She fucking DIDN'T!

Pfft... :(

Blegh!!!

2008-10-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR;
I HATE HAVING A FUCKING COLD!!!
FOR FUCKS SAKE...!!!!!!
I FEEL LIKE RIPPING MY NOSE OFF!!!

----------------------------------------

Anywayss....
I feel like writing lyrics...!

Something about your smile ♫...:

Boy when I’m around you I get weak,

my heart starts pumpin’ a crazy beat,

words in ma mouth but I cant speak...

Baby I cant breath wid u next 2 me.

Gotta check my lungs see if they still work,

Gotta check my heart underneath my shirt,

I think I’m in love...

There’s something about your smile.

Just a little something something

(she said there’s)

just a little something something.

She just told me that there’s

just a little something something.

There's somethin bout your smile...! ♫

----------------------------------------

Alex baby, that one's for you ;)!

I love you bubba (L)

xo.

... :(!

2008-10-02T22:56:00.004+08:00

I am.

I honestly am.

Well... Im trying!

I just...

Oh I'm so confused :(!

I'm trying to stay out of this shit

'Cause I don't want to lose you;

And you;

Etc...!

--------------------------------------

Sometimes, I wish I were an angel;

Sometimes, I wish I were you.

Sometimes, I wish I were an angel;

Sometimes, I wish I were you.

But there's DANGER in the air

Try so hard to be unfair;

Danger's in the air;

Try so hard to give us a scare;

But we're not AFRAID... ♫

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Pfft... :(!

xo.

Lalalalala :)!

2008-10-02T17:53:00.003+08:00

Hmmm...
Bored...
So I thought I'd blog!
Oh, yesterday I forgot to mention what I did with Daddy!

I was like sittin in my dads office, and I was like... I have a craving for pavlova (desert thing!) and then me dad was like "go get my cook book" So likee we found it in there... and then like we went shoppin and bought the ingredients, and like yehh we made it :D! Then likee he bought ingredients for his "Fish pie" And we spent the day cooking :D!

Cool eh...

No not really... That's the only father- daugher time I've EVER had with him... at least from what I can remember :(!

So like yehh anywayss...!!!

I went one utama today :)!

Got like my hair done :P!

AND got the light green pen missing from my set of pilots :)!

Oh, and I played with Jasper in Kizsports!

Went down the BIG, green, spiraled slide a few times too :P!

Blegh... can't be assed to think of what to write.

So I'm-a leave it ere :)!

Au revoir Bloggie

xo.

The Neighbour... My Love xo,

2008-10-01T22:09:00.003+08:00

Im like watching it like now :)!
Hahaha it's quite funny...
actually funny's not the word.
It's...

entertaining :)!

Gosh... I've got Alex on my mind :(!

GAHH I miss him soo much!!!

You see...

Ever since all those cinema dates

I had with youu,

I can't stand watching films/movies

without you here.

Babess I love you so much.

It's unbelievable;

It really is.

Anyways... Back to the film :)!

Well, I don't really know what to say about it.

Tbh, My mind's full of YOU...

Yes YOU...

YOU

Goshhhhhhh... Baby you got me going crayzeeeee!!!

Can I kiss you...

Like NOW!

Can I hug you...

Like NOW!

Can I snog you...

Like NOW!

Can I hold you...

Like NOW!

Can I touch you...

Like NOW!

LURVEEEE

YOUUUUUU!!!

REALLY

DOOO!!!

xo.

Grrr

2008-10-01T03:58:00.002+08:00

... Maybe you're right.

... Maybe you're wrong.

...I don't know.

You said not to get involved,

Thing is, I already am.

And what do you expect me to do now?!

Back off and leave everyone to it?

You don't undrstand.

I want to. I would prefer to not be in this...

Why?!

Bacause I to, do not want to lose friends.

But isn't it too late now?!

I know there's a saying

"It's never too late!" But isn't it?!

If I back out now,

Yes I may keep a load of friends,

But I might lose a very special one.

One who has always been close to me even if she looks far-off.

You don't understand, I can't bare to lose you.

And you.

Yes all of you.

Because every single one of you have always been there for me.

Have always been able to make me smile at some point.

And I don't want anything to destroy that... :(!

I wish this never happened!!!

Alex Babe <3 xo.

2008-10-01T03:34:00.002+08:00

Arghhh babeee...

I miss you so much :(!

Talking to you now about our summer makes me smile hehe

Goshh, I cant wait to be back in ur arms!!!

Grarrr... i hate being so far.

There is so much I want to do and say.

Babyy I love you so much.

With all this shit going on at school and outside of school.
Makes me feel shit; but knowing that you'll always be there for me,
well, it makes me so happy to be alive.
You really have no idea how much you mean to me bubs!
You're truly...

Amazing.

Jazz <3

2008-09-29T21:10:00.003+08:00

Oh jar jar, where do I start?!

Goshh...

ILY Jarz,

I really do.

And i want you to know that no matter what happens,

I will always be here for you.

Just like how you was there for me,

Through thick and thin...

I know things are hard for you right now,

And proberbly hard on a lot of other people to,

But when it comes to you,

I truly try to relate you as much as possible.

You're like a sister to me.

We gossip together.

We laugh together.

We cry together.

I feel your pain, and no matter what happens [lets hope for the best.]

will

always...

[ALWAYS]

be here for you love.

FFS

2008-09-27T01:06:00.002+08:00

Why are you such a SLUT?!?!?!
GTFO...
I want to fucking slap you back to where you fucking came from :@
Stupid bitch!!!
Im glad hes not your fucking friend anymore, he doesnt fucking need you in his life!
So why dont you just fuck on out of our lives, coz ur not wanted by anyone of us...!

Stupid SLAG :@

Goshhhh...xo,

2008-09-26T23:43:00.004+08:00

I actually feel like crap
I dont know why!

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you

cry?

Have you ever needed something so bad you can't

sleep at night?

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't

come out right?

Have you ever...?

Pfft... i miss my alex :(

So much crap has gone on these past few weeks;

in and out of school

and its actually really upsetting :(!

......

alex

Your all i EVER think about these days <3

Today...

Tomorrow...

The next day...

The day after that...

Etc...

--x-- I love you --x--

Woot

2008-09-26T22:55:00.001+08:00

Finally updated blog. To tired to write :P!

xx

Arghh

2008-06-24T22:00:00.002+08:00

Just had that end of ear concert thingy! Went pretty ok i guess... i kinda screwed up on one line, oh and didnt sing properly but oh well :P! life goes on eh?! XD!

Hmmm... theres someone who is really starting to annoy me, but hey im just gonna keep my mouth shut coz i just simply cant be assed for a fight!

Had a little 'arguement' with alex on monday night... :( coz i stayed up all night, he got worried and stuff so yeh... Seriously dudess im fineee :D (but thanks for caring lol :P!) Hmm i guess me and him are fine now... he then got into an arguement with his mum coz he wouldnt come off of the computer cause of me... (Gahh... Sorry!!! :() Gosh im such a fuck up!!! I love you so much :( xx

Anyways, gna try gettin a bit of sleep.

Grr wth... Johns giving me a lecture on how im "inconciderate" :S... Because i forgot to wake up so he could take me to the concert thingy at school... Seriously... wth, so i was a few minutes late... its not my fault i slept through the alarm! (SORRY!!!!!)

Omgsh school was pretty fun today! LOADS of people went on the Malay trip, and so our classes ended up gettin jont, and we watched films nd stuff! Instead of english, we could hve watched the Canterbury Tales, but instead we watched a debate between Crest and Sultan... omgsh it was sooo funny when Kaylan done his speach! "Im not Encyclopedia Oceanic, or Wikipedia!" Hahaha... hes a brilliant debater :P! Then we was supposed to have mandarin, but we watched some film... well... i slept XD:P! Then we had geography where we quickly went through our test papers, but we were pulling LOADS of jokes whilst we were doing it lol :P! Omgsh i like got SUCH a BAD percentage :P! Uhh ohh! Oh, and then we watched the simpsons in class... Then we had lunch which was actually pretty cool cause there wasnt many of us, so it was pretty peaceful :P! Ermm and then drama... where we was supposed to be looking for things to put in our lay for the end of year drama exam, but instead... i was looking at song lyrics and stuff [; Gosh im such a bod :P! OH... and we had a stupid fire drill during it! Was SOOO gay coz it was SOOO HOT on the friggin field!!! lol :P! [;

*Boom*; I Miss Alex :(!<>

Yeh ano, Sarah always gets pissed with me now whenever i talk about him or whatever... but oh well... we cant all be you sarah! (Dnt mean tht in a bad way! So dnt get all pissy wif me tomorrow!)

Anyhuus... Gta get outta this dress and into sumink baggy lol :D XD...!

Im Outtiess :D

# Kiim-Biisok*__Ox #

Shittt lol XD!

2008-06-18T18:14:00.002+08:00

Hmmm wooo examsare OVER yayyy!

Gosh... i feel ashamed to call myself english when i go 53 bloody % for my exam!

On the other hand, I passed my maths test with an 82% :P Wooo not bad for a years worht of no studying or homework or class work :P!

Woo yehh i spoke to Alex on the phone after school [; hehe its funny listenin to him when hes only just woken up :P! :D! Boom boom boom I LOVE YOU ALEX ♥ hehe...!

Rightioo.. Time for me to try and get some sleep :P

Nighty-night--x

кιмѕυѕαииє*__Ox ♥ [;

Skill :)

2008-06-17T21:06:00.005+08:00

Woop :D

I just watched 21 :P (FINALLY :P)
hmm exams exams exams... just two left now... WOO :D!!!
Oh Jarrah... you do make me lol sometimes :D
Me... beautiful... pretty?! MY ASS!!!!
boom boom boom damn ive got a headache :(!

OMGSH jarrah and katrina and pauline and lauren are going to england durin summer tooo :D!!!
Sleepover at my place for a weekend or something?! :D

YAY

omg... just cut my nails... so when i try to scratch... I CANT... ARGHH why'd i cut them so friggi short -_-?!!!! What a plonker i am :P!

You see... i obviously have NO life... XD im becoming a... well ermm... an ALEX... See... hes a COMPLETE loser :D and has nooooo life ;)! (muahaha u know im kiddin! I love youu really my retarded nob head :D!)

OMFGSH... just like 31 more days untill im like actually on my way to Thailand/England!!!

SUMMER IS APPROCHING... YAYYYYY

BOOM BANG POP FIZZ BAM WHIZZ... WOOOOOOO I IS LIKE WELL EXCITEDDD :P!

Proof That Jarrah is an IDIOT :P!

*boys talking about football*
Nick : dude czech republic!!
Kin mann : czech are out
Jarrah: CHECK HER OUT?**points to MARIA
Jarrah: YOU ARE CHECKING MARIA OUT?
Lara : HAHAHAHAH
Pauline : huh?
Kin mann : jarrah you idiot, i said CZECH ARE OUT
Jarrah: ohhh...

My form teacher makes me LOL! Ms Yap... What a fish head... but i love her really :P!
Proof of how "nice" she is :P!

*Year 10 boy walks into our class*
Boy : Ms Yap... (as if he knew her...!)
Ms Yap : WHO ARE YOUUU?!!!!

Omgsh... today; a series of "VERY" unfortunate events! I think i must have seen my three most "FAVOURITE" teachers like 99999999 kagillion times... Ok maybe im exaggerating... actually... im proberbly not... coz once i saw ther faces... they started haunting me and so i kept seeing them in my head... [SCARY] looool well.. t'was the FOOT (yer the ass who called me a pain in PE... i wont mention his name because 1) he doesnt deserve to be mentioned 2) i might get "suspended"!!!) Anyway, the other two teachers were the well.. ermm... lets just call them the EWW'S!!! - Sarah would know why... :P LOL :D Well... put it like this... they are the most AWGASGARHYAERYH teachers like EVER!!!! Blegh... i dont wanna talk bout them anymore... they stress me out... hahaha!

Boom... Chris is talkin to me... haha hes talkin bout alex :/ uhh ohh... lol hehe!

Hmm... ermm... I better like ermm well... msn? or sleep?! lol... one of them :)!

Au revoir (:

xO__*Kimmy-Sus*__Ox

WOOOOOO :D

2008-06-16T14:58:00.003+08:00

Kim Is HAPPY :D loool !!!

1) Got a new phone! (Sony Ericson-w960i)
2) Adela is coming back to KL in 2 weeks!!!
3) Summer is about 1 month away!!!
4) Me and Alex had such a FAB talk last night :D (1 hour and a half lol! :P)
5) Had a fun bus ride home :)!
6) Exams are nearly over!!! WOOO!
7) I LOVE ALEX <3>
8) Im like cool :)!
9) NO tuition today YAY!!!
10) Im gonna sleep lol :D!
11) I got ermm 48/60 for maths paper 1 :P Woo i beat Jarrah hahaha! Not bad for a whole year of ermm listenin to ipod and drawing in maths class haha :D (Me and Jazz is like d kwliestests peoples like EVER :D :P!!! xx)

Woop well yehh... that about some it up... omgsh sony ericson bugs me...! I have to transfer all my contacts one by friggin one! Why the hell cant i just copy the contacts from my sim GRRR!

BOOM i loved that phone call with alex omgshh it was like OOBER nice and MAJOR sweet teehee!! Woohoo!!!!! <3>xx

Oh shoot i think im hyper haha! Boris bought me a drink today lol i think it was ful of like LOTS of SUGARRRR :P!

Adela just asked me what TBH meant... gosh that girl has issues hahaha (You know i love you really :P!)

BOOM BOOM BOOM LETS GO BACK TO MY ROOM SO WE CAN DO IT ALL NIGHT AND YOU CAN MAKE ME FEEL RIGHT. OHHH BOOM BOOM BOOM LETS GO BACK TO MY ROOM SO WE CAN DO IT ALL NIGHT, AND YOU CAN FUCK FUCK FUCK ME. BOOM OH YEHH YEH BOOM OH YEHH YEHH!!!

Hahahahahaha! Uhh ohhh... Someones a hyper shit *Cough Cough*

I I I
LOVE LOVE LOVE <3 ---x---*---x--- <3
ALEX ALEX ALEX

Lool poor josh doesnt want to go to school hahaha... oh well... thats life for you mate :P!!! Boom... ill keep him company until he has to go to school hehe... what a nice friend i am :)!

Bang BOOM Pop Whizz Zoom Fizz BAM...

I IS LIKE WELL IN LOVEE WITHH YOUU ALEX * <3

Pfft... had better go do something useful now hehe (:

KiiM * <3__Ox

BANG - As Alex Says...!

2008-06-14T01:34:00.004+08:00

Help?!

i love him,
i love him,
i love him,
its true.
i love him,
i love him,
i love him,
i do.

H
E
L
P

M
E
!

Why's love so *HARD*

Haha, i was on webcam with alex yesterday, and we was muckin about swearing at eachother and stuff (yes thats how we show our love for eachother hahaha XD!) and then he made his hands and fingers into a heart shape without me like asking and it made my insides go all funny! Damn baby i love you SO much!!! (I know a lot of well "issues" are going on right now... but that doesnt change the way i feel a bout you. I love you... its the truth, and thats just how it is. Baby, your like a dream come true! <3)

I asked him to do it again for me after, and then i print screened it and edited it using paint :P!

SEE!!! :-

...

lol uhh ohh... i woke up late for school today! you see... i was sort of up like all night, i managed to nick a bit of sleep at 5:30am but was supposed to wake up at 6:00am for school. I ended up wakin up at 7:18am thanks to my maid and Jasper :P!

Hehe where would i be without some people XD :P!

Lol, Im waitin for Lex to come back home from his uncles lol. I think im gonna just stop blogging, and go watch 21 (lent to me by jarrah... Thanks jars, your a star ily!!! xx)

Anyways im off...

<3 x--Kim--x <3

Bored...

2008-06-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

So yeh... I was just thinking, and came up with a few lines that rhymed... im thinking of turning it into a song... just not sure yet...

Goes like this...

*
If you love me, won't you let me know?
If you hate me, please dont let it show!
Cause baby... I want our love to grow.
and maybe i don't wanna let go!

*

I also came up with this poem during my science class... you see... we was meant to be eitherdoing science work, Or revising for our next test which was geography... which omgsh was like such a WTF exam... but hey... life goes on!

Anyway it goes like this:

*

She needs to get her mind off him.
She needs to let him go.
She needs to wipe those tears away,
And never let them show.

He needs to hold her in his arms.
He needs her by his sides.
He needs to go and hunt for her,
No matter where she hides.

They need to get back together.
They need to sort this out.
They need to hope for the future,
And need not ever doubt.

* (I think im going to add to it... but not yet...!)

Gosh i miss him like crayzee!!! ;(<>

BTW... Sorry Lozza... ily :)

Alex and Josh are thieves!!! They keep stealing my words :O!!!

Haha... oh well... like i said earlier... life goes on eh?!

Lmao :D

xXx --Kiim-- xXx

P.S... I know Sarah is about to read this so... Hi :D thought Id Give you a nice welcome hehe :P! x

Au Revoir Ppls__Ox iilya :D xx

How Depressing

2008-06-05T04:21:00.000+08:00

Omgsh... Some holiday this is...! Its friggin HORRIBLE!!!! Its boring... i can't believe i just said that; but it is! What the Omg!!! :( its soo depressingly bad! Psshhtt... anyways... whoh, just realised its 4:24am haha shouldn't i be in bed :S hmmm... NO :D

Whys Alex suddenly gone all quite :(! omg... o rite hes got pins and needles haha my bad... god im sooo PARANOID!!!!!

[;

Oh wells....

I updatd the layout... mind you, stupid me just realised that i don't even like it hahaha (N)

Pfft... well im off now

KiimSusanne--x

Tarrah

--x--

BOOM--x

2008-06-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

Bang, Boom, Pop! (: Woooo today was completely, totally WICKED ;]! Lool but I've got to say, Jarrah's dad is too funny ;)! I don't know what to say, so yeh... I'll end it here! I want to talk to... Alex Obviously!!! <3

Au Revoir

KiimSusanneBiisok # <3

--x--